Monday, June 20, 2011

Mama said there'd be days like this...

Going off lexapro sucks. I really thought that when I was through this rough patch of life and ready to stop medication I would be bouncing back like the old me in no time. Not the case. I took my last lexapro a week ago tomorrow and I have been feeling like crap for the last few days. I feel light headed and dizzy. I'm tired and a little weepy. I feel like my heart is doing weird things. Stuff looks different. I know that sounds weird and I don't know how else to explain it. I kind of feel like I'm in a fog. Emotionally I know I should be happy and I am for the most part but these feelings are freaking me out and making me worry. I'm not supposed to google any more so I had Brian do some research....and I did a bit of my own just now....don't tell :p. It says that feeling this way is to be expected. I talked to Kim and my nurse. Both said it is normal and it will go away in a couple of weeks. I WANT IT TO GO AWAY NOW! I'm scared and worried I'm having these feelings because it means I should go back on the medicine. But I really think I don't need it. I know it's alright if I do, but I feel so confident I can do it on my own. I'm sure that once this withdraw is done I'll feel great. I'm going to the dr. at the end of July for a physical. They said that would be a good time to check back in and decide if I still need the medicine.

I know I've been through a lot in these past few months and I'm on the upswing now. Things are great. Brian is great. My family is great. My friends are great. I have a new job that I am really excited about. It's just going to be a crappy couple of weeks of not feeling well. I just need to remind myself of that. It's nothing to read into or stress out about. It's time to be positive and be a possiblitarian. I CAN DO THIS!

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